pabowhunter
11-29-2008, 04:13 PM
hay everyone i know i havent been on in a while because I was doing real well but it happened. I had a huge relapse which sucks real bad because I was so proud of myself.
but everyone told me it was prolly going to happen and they were right. here's the story i was totally sober for 2 months i got that false impression it was ok to have well as the weeks went by i got back to my normal over drinking. well i was only going out once a week but when i was it was on a 16 hour shift. well needless to say I checked myself into a rehab detox for the first time. I was only there for 2 days but out of all my method's of ways to stop this one really scared the shit out of me . let me tell you all why I had to call a friend to drive me there which is app 40 minutes away i was so sick i vomited all over interstate 81 on the way up. i got there and said to myself hmm this aint so bad well when i checked in did i get a big smash in the face. they tried to drug me up which i refused the drugs and i could because i checked myself in. The put my in the white hospital room no tv one window and my room mate was the heroin attick in detox, first thing that scared me acually 90% of the people there were more for heavy drug use i would say app 20 people on one hospital floor all together. I wasnt feeling well so i took a nap without a pillow which took them 2 hours to get me. i wasnt so hugary so i didnt go to lunch with them but they did have a refridge with the best damn lemonade i have every drank. and i also had a bag of pretzels, I then wondered the halls for a while finding out shit i was in a lock down unit ... well to start i dont like being locked down. well then i was really nervous but i met some people and found out some of them have no one and are in much worse condition then me well as hours went on i found out i couldnt use the phone for 5 days if i wanted something the nurse had to call for me. then my roommate decided to flip a bird on another client and it gets worse dinner came i went to dinner where the food was the most horrible thing ive ever seen i got backfrom dinner then sat down with the head nurse who was vet nice. i told her i think i made the wrong choice of going to an inpatient facility and maybe i should try out patient and she agreed with me, but i did learn one thing during this 2 day stay before i went home. They stay really scared the shit of me i dont wanna be in a place like that for 30 days I am never ever touching another beer as long as I live i just keep seeing those peoples faces. it really scared me huge
but everyone told me it was prolly going to happen and they were right. here's the story i was totally sober for 2 months i got that false impression it was ok to have well as the weeks went by i got back to my normal over drinking. well i was only going out once a week but when i was it was on a 16 hour shift. well needless to say I checked myself into a rehab detox for the first time. I was only there for 2 days but out of all my method's of ways to stop this one really scared the shit out of me . let me tell you all why I had to call a friend to drive me there which is app 40 minutes away i was so sick i vomited all over interstate 81 on the way up. i got there and said to myself hmm this aint so bad well when i checked in did i get a big smash in the face. they tried to drug me up which i refused the drugs and i could because i checked myself in. The put my in the white hospital room no tv one window and my room mate was the heroin attick in detox, first thing that scared me acually 90% of the people there were more for heavy drug use i would say app 20 people on one hospital floor all together. I wasnt feeling well so i took a nap without a pillow which took them 2 hours to get me. i wasnt so hugary so i didnt go to lunch with them but they did have a refridge with the best damn lemonade i have every drank. and i also had a bag of pretzels, I then wondered the halls for a while finding out shit i was in a lock down unit ... well to start i dont like being locked down. well then i was really nervous but i met some people and found out some of them have no one and are in much worse condition then me well as hours went on i found out i couldnt use the phone for 5 days if i wanted something the nurse had to call for me. then my roommate decided to flip a bird on another client and it gets worse dinner came i went to dinner where the food was the most horrible thing ive ever seen i got backfrom dinner then sat down with the head nurse who was vet nice. i told her i think i made the wrong choice of going to an inpatient facility and maybe i should try out patient and she agreed with me, but i did learn one thing during this 2 day stay before i went home. They stay really scared the shit of me i dont wanna be in a place like that for 30 days I am never ever touching another beer as long as I live i just keep seeing those peoples faces. it really scared me huge