No more power to alcohol

[Steve]

We have to stop giving alcohol its power to control us. We quit and we say no. We get it out of our systems. We merge into life fighting against it and doing well. Life feels empty and we think about going back. Just for one night we say to ourselves. Remember how it use to control us. Remember just wanting this to stop and to be sober. If we let it have the power, we will never be happy. I am done with letting it have control over me and what I can do. If we let it have control, it will control where we go and what we do. It can make sobriety for me on a cough and that is no fun. At first, that is what I expected. Now, that is not sobriety for me. I chose to get up off of this computer in a few minutes and go do something. I am going to shut down my brain and I am going to be steve the dad, the friend, the husband. Not steve worried about the av or what others are doing. That for me, is not an option. Take control of our happiness. Do the right things, and when you are ready, live life. I hate relapse. I hate when it takes one of us down. We are all here to help. Let us all reach out for help. The feelings we have, we should share. I have let my fears of drinking get in the way of my life. I sometimes stay behind because I do not want to live life. This is not me. This is the alcoholic who has been rattled. I was rattled almost two years ago. Again, I will pick myself up and do something. I do alot, but I do for others. I will do for myself tonight. Life may seem dull and that is ok for a while. There will be a time when become wanting. The av may come in and leads us the wrong way. Were wanting to live, to be loved, to laugh, to experience what we can in this short time. I did not know what my passion was in life. I still do not know, but I should know that my family is a passion. To grasp it, to love it, to cheerish it, to help it grow is one of my passion. My wife is another passion that needs to be attended to. To be love like no other, to hold her in my arms and feel our souls meet. That is a great passion. To make her laugh, to make her proud, to make her feel beautiful. That is a great passion. Football, to learn the game and share it with others. To show respect to those who have battled and given is a passion. To drink and be depressed and be caught in a vicious cycle is a death sentence. The above seems to be the right answere. Let its talons go. It is not a friend. It is not a buddy who has been through wars with us. It is taking and sucking the life out of our bodies. Take time to mend. It takes alot of time. Each day sober is better than any day drunk. Frustration, it will be there, but it will go soon. I am off to enjoy a night with my family. It is one of my passions in life.

Peacewalker